On Friday night, as I was trying to pick out clothes for the next day, everyone was in our room on our bed. I'd been gone from 4 to almost 8pm setting up our hospitality room for a girls' gymnastics meet. The boys got home later than me and wanted tell me about their night at their old school in San Jose. They'd been to the "Fall Festival" to see old friends. (It worked out for everyone, but Chas, as no friends of his were there.) Anyway, I pulled out my favorite leggings and asked, "Are these too bold, you think?" To which Anthony quickly replied, "Mom. Since when have you been worried about being too bold?" Oh.My.Goodness. Best compliment ever!!
His comment made me happy in many ways, and I've been thinking about it since. The magazines at the store will show "Cougars" and these famous women who look surprisingly still attractive in their 40's and 50's like it's a big deal. (Seriously, I feel confused as to why people care about this and BUY these magazines.) But, I have to say that in my 40's, I feel more "me" than I've felt for the first part of my life. I am comfortable in my skin enough to say, "Screw jeans! I'm living in Leggings!" I've got no one to impress by means of what of I wear. I feel stronger and more fit than I've ever felt. I feel more balanced. I am more forgiving of myself. I live this wonderful life and have fun with what comes along. I'm not trying to be anyone but me, but I'm just trying to be a better me each day. I'm OK that who I am changes in some ways and won't bend in others. And, I feel bolder than ever!
My son picked up on that. I'm bold... Those words sounded so awesome coming from him. I don't often get compliments for who I am. Sometimes I get them for what I do, and those make me feel good inside, too. But, hearing that he loves me for who I AM hit me to the core. It made it seem like I'd done something right. If I were to die tonight, I love the picture he has of me in his head. I just hope for more time to add some more bright colors, scenery, and details to that picture through many more years. :)
So, today when I was getting ready for my Women's Bible Study, I thought that maybe I should dress up a bit more. However, I quickly decided that I would wear my usual leggings- albeit capris. Why? Because I feel good in them. They feel like "me." I am comfortable, can move easily, and just feel awesome. Thinking back to high school, I remember loving those pants even then! How awesome that styles come back around. ;) I can even picture myself in my 70's wearing leggings as pants. LOL... I'll be THAT crazy, old lady! And, it's all good. I am BOLD, per my freshman in high school, and his noticing that makes me feel even more so! Watch out World!
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